Weekend
I love the weekend.
It's a beautiful day here in Feithland. The sky is blue. It's just the right temperature. I have nothing planned but puttering around with art supplies. I woke up late (slept 'till just after 11), which was blissful, and despite some work-out induced stiffness (thank you Biggest Loser DVD), I'm feeling fine.
The quit goes ahead full steam. So far, I have not managed to stay quit on the weekends. I'll not smoke one cigarette all week, but weekends are a weird animal for me. They whisper "have a smoke" and then, when I don't comply, they scream. I've learned that my real addiction to the stuff is not physical (as in, I can go without nicotine altogether) but psychological (certain triggers, habitual smoking, oral fulfillment - which sounds dirty, but it's not! I swear!). Since this journey began, I've gained ten pounds despite eating fairly well (fairly meaning I occasionally scarf down an entire round of brie in desperation) but progress is being made. That's good enough for me. (Just thought those of you who are rooting for me deserved an update!)
I'm doing The Artist's Way again. Week two finds me giggling over glitter and glue. I'm not so much interested in writing these days, but I'm crazy over art journaling and have started to dip my toes into multimedia stuff, too. I'll never be an 'artist' perse, but I am creative, and I love having ways to express that - ways that don't result in my dissolving into a puddle of frustrated tears because I can't find just the right word...
It's been a long break. I write for school now, and pretty much only for school. I'm discovering a talent for the very writing I used to fear the most - essays. I can write essays like nobodies business. Not only can I write them, but they're easy for me. This came as a huge surprise - one I'm delighted by.
This post has zero purpose except to tell you all I'm alive and still working on quitting smoking, doing The Artist's Way and getting messy with paint and glitter and such. I hope you're all having a beautiful weekend!
Love to you and yours!
